My gosh this week went by so quick and it ended the way I did not want it to end.  It started out very fun and exciting and then my dreams were crushed and shattered and that is just how it is I guess.  I don’t want this entire post to be a bummer, but I will make it what I can make it.  I turned .  my boring life into an exciting one by asking a girl out, but by the end of the week, she pretty much said no because it was too much for her to bear.  Which is weird because nothing really made it get to that point.  But anyway.  Let me just get to these questions.

I have been working hard on my senior mastery.  I have all the physical work done and all I have left is the paperwork which is something I am going to work on on Tuesday and get it all done and ready to go so I can get a grade on it and get everything situated and all sorted out and I will be good to go and ready by May.

My internship is repetitive but I love it when they ask for my opinion like it is of great value and when I actually get to make decisions and it is quite enjoyable and they are possibly giving me a scholarship at the end of the internship so I am quite enjoying the outcomes and everything before that.
I have learned that even if everything is on the page, that does not mean it looks good, so I have to redesign some of the page to make it look correct and shape it the exact way it needs to be and I am all set.

For spring break, I spent the first few days getting ready for my first ever concert, in which I performed a total of eight songs and the crowd did enjoy hearing my songs.  so that is a plus.  Other than that, I mostly worked and I did nothing else.  I wish I did more with friends, but it was just more of making money than anything else.

Let me be honest with you, I have not done this in so long, so I have no idea what to say and how to respond to these questions, so let us just hear the general topics and responses and see what happens.  It could be fun.  It could be boring, but I can tell you this: it is not going to be 100% true.

I have done enough but not enough for my senior mastery.  Outside of school, I did work that exceed my expectations, but it will never be enough.   But I also did work inside the school, which seemed like enough, but I feel like I am lacking the work as I get closer.  People are more frantically working as time gets closer, because they have so much work to do. But I feel like I am either putting off work that I do not know of, or I am just avoiding all the work, or I am actually ahead of everyone else, but I strongly feel like I just don’t know how much work I have left, so I am working less when I should be working more.

My internship has been fun and I have done so much there and I am learning so much, but mine may be a little different from others since I work at my church and I actually become closer with the people working there and closer with God.  But that is just my religion, and I don’t want to force it on anyone.  That is just what I am learning in my internship, besides the dangers and constant use of social media and cleaning a bunch.

My new web design things have been adding the last few photos and making a few adjustments, but other than that, I am almost done.  I went over the checklist and I am about 85% done which is a good bit since everyone else is about 20% done.  I just need to add all the practical things and all the fun stuff you would need to actually show everything.  It is not fun and I don’t want to do it, but it is sadly a grade, so go me!

I have all A’s in my classes which is the first time in the longest time except for my major which is a very high B.  So, I will take it and move on with life.

Let me be honest with you, I have not done this in so long, so I have no idea what to say and how to respond to these questions, so let us just hear the general topics and responses and see what happens.  It could be fun.  It could be boring, but I can tell you this: it is not going to be 100% true.

I have done enough but not enough for my senior mastery.  Outside of school, I did work that exceed my expectations, but it will never be enough.   But I also did work inside the school, which seemed like enough, but I feel like I am lacking the work as I get closer.  People are more frantically working as time gets closer, because they have so much work to do. But I feel like I am either putting off work that I do not know of, or I am just avoiding all the work, or I am actually ahead of everyone else, but I strongly feel like I just don’t know how much work I have left, so I am working less when I should be working more.

My internship has been fun and I have done so much there and I am learning so much, but mine may be a little different from others since I work at my church and I actually become closer with the people working there and closer with God.  But that is just my religion, and I don’t want to force it on anyone.  That is just what I am learning in my internship, besides the dangers and constant use of social media and cleaning a bunch.

The most useful thing I have learned from my senior mastery from the annotated bibs side of it is that I am going to fail to be a musician if I don’t find a record label or I am going to go bankrupt because it takes a ton of money to do it independently.  So, giving up is a big portion of my senior mastery and that is what I find the most ironic about it because I am supposed to work hard on everything, but my sources are telling me that I might as well give up or become rich from other sources before I start on a journey of being a musician.  So go internet!

I finished the website.

Let me be honest with you, I have not done this in so long, so I have no idea what to say and how to respond to these questions, so let us just hear the general topics and responses and see what happens.  It could be fun.  It could be boring, but I can tell you this: it is not going to be 100% true.

I have done enough but not enough for my senior mastery.  Outside of school, I did work that exceed my expectations, but it will never be enough.   But I also did work inside the school, which seemed like enough, but I feel like I am lacking the work as I get closer.  People are more frantically working as time gets closer, because they have so much work to do. But I feel like I am either putting off work that I do not know of, or I am just avoiding all the work, or I am actually ahead of everyone else, but I strongly feel like I just don’t know how much work I have left, so I am working less when I should be working more.

My internship has been fun and I have done so much there and I am learning so much, but mine may be a little different from others since I work at my church and I actually become closer with the people working there and closer with God.  But that is just my religion, and I don’t want to force it on anyone.  That is just what I am learning in my internship, besides the dangers and constant use of social media and cleaning a bunch.

For Burroughs, I made a piece that is nice to me, but some people think it looks too busy or it has too much going on or it makes it seem like you have so much going on and yes that all means the same thing.  I am just trying to fill things in and I want to make more words so I can make more words.  Do you get my drift?

And my website is done.

For my senior mastery, I have been working very very hard on certain aspects of it.  I need people to buy things from me so I can get the shirts in two weeks, and everything will be dandy.  I am also working on recording the songs.  I am on song seven out of thirteen so I can say I am making plenty of progress.  I am working with Tal, eventually for her to give me a photo shoot so I can make posters as if I was going a great american tour, which would never happen.  But it would be nice to imagine.  I have been working on my speaking skills as well so I don’t seem like a shy mess when selling my items.

My internship has been very nice.  It has been quite fun, actually.  On Monday, they made me the leader of their social media, so I am now in charge of so many things.  On Tuesday, I had to remodel their youth building and to make a new sign for the snack bar, so that was nice.  Other than that, I grew closer with the people working there and I grew closer with the leader of the college ministries.

When I made my piece for the Art Fields show, I actually made the piece in junior year because I thought it looked cool.  Then, yesterday, I was looking for something to enter and I saw this piece that I will attach to this post, but I called it “Her Ethereal Beauty,” because it is just soemthing too perfect to be true.  And when I made the artist statement, I wrote a story which is very confusing the more you think about it.  It is just a bunch of things I was thinking of splattered on the paper.  I put no real thought into it.  Whatever happened happened.  I fixed the verbs and sent it off.  Other than that, the more you read it, the more you would get confused on what is reality or just my imagination.  So have fun with that.

All I am doing for Valentine’s Day is go out with some friends and eat a cake for two at dairy queen like I did last year with my friends.  It has been a tradition for about three years now.  Even if we were dating someone, we would end the night eating that cake at Dairy Queen that is meant for two and split it between the three of us.
So that is it.

Alright, alright, alright.  This week was truly a week to talk about.  On Tuesday, I went to a Lana Del Rey concert with my best friend, Shelbi, and she is my concert buddy, so we had to go together or neither of us would ever go.  And then on Wednesday, I was running on two hours of sleep from the concert, so school was a blur.  But I had work right after school, so that made life cool.  Then on Thursday, I ended things with my girlfriend because she and I were in a relationship that wouldn’t last and it was eating me alive knowing that she and I won’t last and it destroyed me so much.  I love her, but I had to let it go because in the two years, when we would go our separate ways, it would hurt much much more and it would be worse, so much worse on us.  So I did it now, and her mom saw what was happening and she kicked me out of her house and told me to never to see her again, which really hurts because I do love her, and I probably let the best thing that has ever happened to me out of my life.  And I know you are just going to say it is just high school.  You’ll find someone new, but they were real feelings and they were feelings ripped out of my chest.  I am pretty sure I am supposed to stay single anyway since the career I want is pure with the help of only Jesus and I think that everything I touch anyway, I just ruin, so I will just let it be.  Let us continue with questions, so we don’t all get depressed in my life.

I have remade my logo and I have typed three more songs for my lyric book.  I have also recorded one more song.  I have also made some new business cards and have started on my website.

My internship is good.  We did some of the technical work and the media is now my job.

My week was a week you would probably forget in a week.  It was just a same old same old week with nothing different and all the same and those are the weeks I just d not pay too much attention to.  I rather would just like to continue on to the next week to see if the next week will be better or worse than the past week.  I do believe I ate fewer unhealthy food.  I have been eating healthier, but not in good quantities.  I would only eat one meal a day and then on the weekends, just eat throughout the day.  I guess I just need to manage my eating, but on that note, I also need to manage my spending of money, because it is slowly making me broke.  I am living my week from paycheck to paycheck and it hurts me.  I can only blame myself because I am spending this money and it is not helping me.  I have to pay five bills which is about 200 dollars a month.  Which, in total is about twelve hundred a year.  I make about 2,500 dollars a year, but I just slowly spend all that extra money on literally only food.  Anyway, no more my terrible habits.  Let us continue to the questions.

My first semester grades are honestly passing.  As long as I keep my 3.0 GPA, I don’t mind, because that is free college.  And free is affordable.  Then I get the lifetime scholarship which gives me 2,500 dollars, which helps my textbooks, and that is literally all I need and I can take the extra of that money and save for something so great like a concert to a band or something because of all this jazz.

I worked very hard on my senior mastery if I was at school to do it.  I was sick all week and had two real days of school, and all that I can remember doing is typing another song for my lyric book that uses so much paper that I might as well be charged the equivalent to America’s national debt.

I spent my first day of my internship not doing anything except being introduced to the people I will be with and making goals for myself and then sitting around talking about what will happen in my internship.

I am choosing video games and how it is affecting teens and adults around us.

My week was very lazy and very exciting.  I did a lot this week, but I didn’t do enough.  But, I really do not want to get into it.  It was actually a very personal week and I usually tell all on here, but not today.  So, I am just going to start the questions I am forced to answer. because it is super fun.

For the entire week, I worked very slowly on my senior mastery.  I must learn InDesign, but it has to be the most boring program that I had to learn.  I strongly dislike it.  I finally learned how to put an illustrator file into InDesign, but it is super super super blurry and I don’t know how o fix it and I truly hate it.  I also, on Thursday, worked on music.  I actually like how I can sing and play at school without consequence and I actually love it.  I will, when I am comfortable, ask for peoples’ opinions on certain songs.  I will actually play for the class or for a few people and ask for criticism from other people so I can perfect the song.  And then I am just fixing my lyric book at this point.  All I have to do is write the lyrics and print it and boom.  Talent.

My internship papers and filled out.  I just have to get my parents to sign it and I am done with that.  I can turn it in and I can get about 120 hours of internship hours in about two months or less because I am very involved with my church.  Especially in the second semester too, because of the fact that I have a double block and I can just leave early and work on it.

I chose a quote from the bible because I can finally do something in my major that can spread the good news and I am strongly happy with it.    The quote is from Colossians 3:12.  It reads, “Clothe yourselves with Compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience.”  It is just a really great quote and it relates to everyone, not just people that believe in Christianity.

This week was actually very fun, yet very very stressful.  I have yet to have a week where it was not stressful so this might seem very repetitive, so forgive me on that.  On Monday, I had rehearsals for the talent show and that was very very fun.  I got to see all the acts, or at least most of them, and I highly enjoyed them.  I cannot wait until next semester to do it again.  But I am getting ahead of myself.  That was also the first day we were given this project to do in Physics, and it was this tug boat project.  Of course, I decided to work by myself, because the last time I did something with someone, they did nothing and got all the credit for what I did, so I practically worked by myself.  So now, I actually am working by myself.  On Tuesday, it was actually the talent show and I did not win, but I had so much fun.  I sang an original called “Wake Us Up” and it got a lot of good feedback.  I did get criticism when I asked for it.  I have to work on my pronunciation, which I can do.  It’ll just take some time.  And with the next one in the spring, I will have time to, especially with the song I am doing.  It is so sad and so emotional, everyone will like it.  Even the judges.  Which is the goal because I want to win so badly.  To prove to the world that I can do anything.  Anyway, on Wednesday, nothing happened.  Thursday, nothing.  Friday, nothing exciting except the Justice League movie.  It was actually really good.  Saturday, went on a date with this girl.  She and I are still dating, but not going steady.  She doesn’t want a boyfriend yet, which I understand with school and all, but I am planning for around January to ask her out for real to make her my girlfriend.  Hopefully, she will say yes.  Now, let us get started on the blog.

I wrote an annotated bib for my senior mastery.  That is it.

I finished it, and all I can say is that I am satisfied with what I have done, but if I had more time, I know it could have been a little better.

The compassion/kindness thing is very strong in our school.  At least, it was.  Last year, there were little to no cases of anything bad happening in our school, but the moment we got a new batch of freshmen and juniors, something happened.  I don’t want to say the juniors, because of the majors bringing everyone closer together, and becoming one big family, but the freshmen having the trouble.  They have to come here and have no friends with them and have to deal with making new ones right after making new ones in middle school.  So they have it hard, but freshmen seminar is supposed to bring them closer together as well.  That is what that is for.  I feel that some people are so insecure about themselves, that they need some attention, and every time they tried to get some, they would get ignored and embarrassed and made fun of and then they have to be by themselves.  But I have yet, so far this year, seen someone sit alone at lunch, to be ignored, or be bullied.  This school is small.  Rumors spread rapidly.  If someone was bullying someone, someone would do something about it, and it would be spread around the school.  If someone bullied someone at the school, it would also be spread around the school rapidly.  I have yet to hear a case of bullying.  And the racial aspect of everything.  I have yet to look at someone and turn them away from their race.  Racism is a big part of media right now, but I said this last year to Jared, if society looked at our school specifically, because we have straight people, trans people, gay people, atheists, Christians, Hindus, Asians, Hispanics, white, black, and other diversities, and we are a school with no chaos.  We are a school that is so diverse, but we are one of the best examples of how people in the real world should act.  We coexist with little problems and truly still get along with each other.  This school, if not, is the future of America, yet people look at us as children like we don’t understand the bigger issues.  It is because of adults because they think that they are older, think they are wiser.  That is never the case.  You can be young and be wiser than an older gentleman.  It exists.  When most adults stop being ignorant towards teenagers, then they will see that The Academy For the Arts, Sciences and Technology is the future of great people working towards a better future in the Social Justice world and the Academic world.

My opinions are too strong about the video, but I will say this much.  If there was a real problem with the school, then something should have happened.  Not just one email.

I am Thankful for everyone that is in my life that makes me smile and even the people that make me feel awful inside.

This week was probably the fastest week, but my most stressful and depressing week this year.  But now that people actually read my blog, (Hey, Paola!).  But anyway, I am literally done with this week.  I only have few positives, for example, I now drive, and I drive frequently, and I love driving.  I just feel like I am too stupid to be driving.  I almost got in my first accident on Thursday, and it truly scared the crap out of me.  I am now even more careful of a driver, but my dad tells me to be a cowboy, which means I have to be risky.  But I am so safe, that I don’t really think that I can be a cowboy.  So, thank you for reading my stress.  Also, another happy thing is that happened is that I auditioned for the talent show and I am now in the talent show on Tuesday, which is exciting.  People can now hear me sing and hear my songs.  I know I won’t win, but I do believe that I also won’t place.  But I will have a fun time and will have the time of my life.  So, I guess that is all that really matters in the end.  I just have so much work to do over the weekend, and I don’t see myself ever getting a break.  But, it is all good.  I will get over it.

I did absolutely nothing for my senior mastery.  I am not even going to lie.  I don’t know my new sources either.  I will find out sometime this weekend when I do all my homework and finish everything and impress everyone and prove everyone that I am not a complete slacker, and that I can do everything and that I am not a waste of space.

My micography looks great so far.  I just have to do the face, in which will take me some time, because it is a lot harder than it looks.  But in otherwise, it is good.  I am happy about it.

The SCAD speaker was really nice, and made me interested in a school I could never afford, which is her job, so props to her.  And the person from CCU was super nice, and I could tell she was nervous, but she also made me interested in a major that I cannot join but makes me super interested, which is again her job, so good for her.

First quarter grades don’t matter.  It is the full semester that matter.  Which I will be working hard on and getting them up.